The Fabric of Me

                                                          The Fabric of Me

The one artifact that has been a constant element or factor in my life is my clothing/style. This relates to my personal identity development because it keeps evolving and changing. When I started defining my sense of style, my own sense of self starting coming together too. By me being able to express my taste and personality through clothing, I was able to build up my confidence and start discovering the things that I like and wished to associate myself with. Throughout elementary and high school, I used to dress really simple; jeans, sneakers and a plain tshirt, that's it but through time I have been able to really get to know the real me and find out my interests. I started dressing more colorfully, focusing on color palettes and patterns but I think that when I realized what my passion was and what I wanted to dedicate myself to the rest of my life (film/movies) is when my style took a major turn. I stopped making an effort or trying to look a certain way and just let it flow. My style, like my identity,is always changing. When my style and clothing started developing, my identity started to take form. I was becoming more comfortable in my own skin and I became more outgoing, I was able to express myself better too. Much like Tabitha Rowery in "Hair Chronicles", instead of hair, my clothing/style charts the history of my identity. I was able to relate to Tabitha in this aspect since my sense of style has been the constant factor in my inner and outer journey. It has marked different phases in my life, good and bad.

My clothing/style has always determined what mood I am feeling or what I am going through. Usually if I am in a good mood, I noticed that I go for brighter colors whereas when I feel bad, I dress darker. My style is a reminder of how far I  have come. I always compare the way I used to dress when I was younger to now and honestly, the change is for the better. I am more confident and I am more aware of who I am and I reflect that through my clothing; a sense of security. I could relate to Tabitha when she started talking about how when she let her hair natural, she started liking herself more and I think that happened to me. When I stopped trying to look like someone else or trying to impress others through my style, its when I finally got hold of myself and started being me. University has helped me expand my closet since there is inspiration everywhere. I think that when I finally got to university , a major turning point in my sense of style happened. With this insight, I can concur that usually when life changing events happen, that constant artifact in your life evolves along with you, My clothing is the fabric of me.