Sunday, May 27, 2018

On Looking


How do you pay attention? Observing or analyzing something is subjective since nobody sees what you see. We pay attention to what our subconscious is attracted to. Based on our profession or passion, our criticaly eye turns general observation into selective attention. So how does a person pay attention? Even Horowitz said that we miss things when we are paying attention. Through concentration we are able to comprehend and decipher what surrouns us , but like Horowitz said, even through concentration we tend to miss things. Through concentration, our attention becomes selective and we focus on whatever we choose, it depends on the observer, and yet we are still not able to capture everything. Horowitz says: "we miss the world, making itself available to be observed, and we miss the possiblity of being surprised by what is hidden in plain sight in front of us." Basically, there is more to the human eye than you know. We need to observe the ordinary, the familiar, the recgonizable and try to find something that has been hidden from yourself by yourself. We need to become aware of whats in front of us. Analyze the obvious, and the familiar becomes the unfamiliar. Its okay to miss out on stuff. I mean, history is the documentation of change over time and even then not ev erythiong is documented. We also miss out because our minds are not physically able to rememeber and hold everything. We need to forget in order to remember. Memomery is overwhelming and sometimes we see or observe things in our daily routine that we can forget particularities that we might have catched on to but can't remember. Time ceases to exist when we act on the familiar, we are in a type of trance that makes our brains shift into automatic mode and only repeat the cycle. We stop observing and we stop paying attention  but Horowitz challenges that routine. We tend to stop focusing on the familiar since we know it and  have observed it so many times, we think that there is nothing more, nothing left to study. Horowitz says: "the capacity to attend is ours; we just forget how to turn it on."

Other factors can affect how you observe or pay attention like your physical state (wether you are tired or energized) and emotional state (sad, angry, frustrated or happy) bu the most influential factgor is you ercption of reality based on what you are passionate about. Horowtiz says:" the tendecy to look at every context from the point of view of ones profession." Due to our passion or whatever field we decide to dedicate the rest of our lives to; what we observe is influencd by this because it make our awareness and observation, selective. Fo example, my dedication towards film, makes me see through a camaras panorama. Basically, whenever I walk around, I catch myself thinking "oh this place would make a great still or setting for a scene". My passion influences my perception of reality and the ordinary.

Thursday, May 10, 2018

The Fabric of Me



                                                          The Fabric of Me
The one artifact that has been a constant element or factor in my life is my clothing/style. This relates to my personal identity development because it keeps evolving and changing. When I started defining my sense of style, my own sense of self starting coming together too. By me being able to express my taste and personality through clothing, I was able to build up my confidence and start discovering the things that I like and wished to associate myself with. Throughout elementary and high school, I used to dress really simple; jeans, sneakers and a plain tshirt, that's it but through time I have been able to really get to know the real me and find out my interests. I started dressing more colorfully, focusing on color palettes and patterns but I think that when I realized what my passion was and what I wanted to dedicate myself to the rest of my life (film/movies) is when my style took a major turn. I stopped making an effort or trying to look a certain way and just let it flow. My style, like my identity,is always changing. When my style and clothing started developing, my identity started to take form. I was becoming more comfortable in my own skin and I became more outgoing, I was able to express myself better too. Much like Tabitha Rowery in "Hair Chronicles", instead of hair, my clothing/style charts the history of my identity. I was able to relate to Tabitha in this aspect since my sense of style has been the constant factor in my inner and outer journey. It has marked different phases in my life, good and bad.

My clothing/style has always determined what mood I am feeling or what I am going through. Usually if I am in a good mood, I noticed that I go for brighter colors whereas when I feel bad, I dress darker. My style is a reminder of how far I  have come. I always compare the way I used to dress when I was younger to now and honestly, the change is for the better. I am more confident and I am more aware of who I am and I reflect that through my clothing; a sense of security. I could relate to Tabitha when she started talking about how when she let her hair natural, she started liking herself more and I think that happened to me. When I stopped trying to look like someone else or trying to impress others through my style, its when I finally got hold of myself and started being me. University has helped me expand my closet since there is inspiration everywhere. I think that when I finally got to university , a major turning point in my sense of style happened. With this insight, I can concur that usually when life changing events happen, that constant artifact in your life evolves along with you, My clothing is the fabric of me.



Journal Project

For my Journey in Literature class, I had to carry around a journal in which I had to write on 5 times a week till I reached 40 entries. I  ...